Lost anchors and other thoughts...
I posted (so I thought) and it is gone. GONE. Not happy....I'll repost my anchors away thought later, I've lost blogging motivation....
I guess I'll just write thoughts of the past few days --
1. I don't ever want to see the movie "The Breakup" but totally relate to the commercial for it. The line I love is something like 'I want you to want to do the dishes!'. This sediment is the downfall of all of my relationships. I want everyone to want to do everything that I want them to do, naturally. Yes, I could tell you what I want you to do, and if history repeats itself you will do it. Want to do it on your own for god's sake! Be a good boyfriend/girlfriend/friend because you just are, because it's your instinct, it's natural to you, NOT because I told you to... An ex once said to me, after such a conversation, that if everyone did what was natural and instinctual, we'd all shit our pants. I found the comment to be quite wise, and I still do. Didn't change my mind though, and it didn't make him any better of a boyfriend.
2. In Reviving Ophelia the author talks about how adolescent boys deal with bad feelings and/or insecurities through fighting. Adolescent girls deal with these things by being catty, mean, vindictive, by alienation and by being cruel. The latter is far more destructive, in the long run, and I think it carries with you far past adolescence. Steve said to me once, at the end of a conversation about rape, that it's too bad that I can't deal with the situation like a guy. I'd just kick my rapist's ass and be done with it. How nice would THAT be!
horn!
posted by Z @ 5:20 PM
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